Today is all about the freaking out. Emery and I are officially sick. There is only so much blind eye I have to turn to the goopy coughs and copious amounts of mucous everywhere. Emery doesn't so much sleep or eat normally, so you can imagine how much whining and not sleeping is going on in my house right now. So, naturally, I've decided to find as many things as possible to stress out about so that I am at completely crazy levels of insanity. This is not helped by the fact that admission of illness today means no play group, which is usually very helpful for me stress/boredom/sanity.
For some inexplicable reason I've become obsessed with the ideas of cloth diapers. Possible explanations for this obsession are as follows: I stumbled across the one cloth diaper we received as a shower present that we've never used, when I put said never-used diapers on Emery they looked freaking adorable, all of the Mommy blogs that I read seem to be talking about how awesome cloth diapers are, my Mom was awesome and collected about a million packs of disposables for us before Emery was born and we just now had to start buying our own and DAMN! diapers are expensive, I picked up a pattern and materials to make my own cloth diapers because they were free and I don't have enough fabric just sitting under my bed not being sewn, boredom. So, I got all excited about the idea and ordered one diaper from a company that the Mommy bloggers seem to love, then slapped the cloth diaper we had on Emery this morning with complete trust that we were "ready to make the change people" and then she immediately peed out the front of it all over herself. I'm hoping we're just cloth diaper noobs and made some silly mistake, or that the new diaper in transit will be even more awesome, but that was great.
During the great cloth diaper search of yesterday I came across an article about how some daycares won't take kids who wear cloth diapers. So, I spent the morning looking up local daycares that we might want to send Emery to eventually so that I could poll them and see whether it was even worth thinking about switching over. I then discovered that all of the Stanford daycares are completely booked and recommend putting yourself on their waitlist multiple months before you actually want your child enrolled, but even then, they can't guarantee anything. I am now, of course, in complete freak out mode what with the "She'll never get into a good daycare and then she won't get into a good preschool and college and her life will be ruined forever." Melodramatic much?
Then of course there is the elephant in the room, codename: my thesis which will never be done. John and I agreed last night that he has to really take over with Emery as soon as he gets home so I can get a few hours of work in every day. I'm thinking of putting myself on some sort of billable hours system... 10 hours per week or no Fraiche yogurt for you! Of course I can't start this week because (insert 50 random excuses here).
Also, Emery is so mobile at this point that my failure to baby-proof is becoming a problem. She scoots forward, backward, rolls in every which way, and pulled herself up to standing in her crib for the first time today. I put some foam pipe insulation around the bottom of some of our furniture yesterday, and that seems to be helping decrease the number of head bonks per day. I also cleared out the bottom shelf of our bookcase (hooray!) and filled it with Emery's books and toys and only a few of my things that I couldn't find any other place for but am willing to sacrifice in the name of drool.
The silver lining: tomorrow is John's work from home day, John's company is hosting an ice skaing event Friday morning which I plan to make some rockin' cupcakes for, my mom is coming in three weeks to hang out and drink wine, and Friday begins our new play group composed of the same people we do Wednesday play group with, but with a different agenda. No playing for you today kids, Friday is music day, so there.
I have pictures of Emery pulling herself up in her crib, but I am too lazy to get them off of the camera. Instead, enjoy this picture of her all bundled up and ready for a jog with Daddy: